The Wanderer

He Said She Said (Trigger Warning: Self Harm)

Submitted by-Anonymous

 

He looks but nothing else

He stares but none the less

He watches but doesn’t act

He feels but doesn’t speak

He knows but is too scared for anything else

She looks but nothing happens

She speaks but not to him

She waits for him to notice her

She feels but thinks he doesn’t

She is sad because he doesn’t do anything

She misses his happiness

He wonders about her feelings

They both are scared

Scared to feel

He just wants her happiness but doesn’t know how to help

She wants him to not be scared

She wants his happiness

But thinks he doesn’t trust her

He trusts her but thinks she doesn’t

They want to feel but think they will get hurt

They act but are scared to

They admit everything but are still scared

They date but very slowly

She wants to move a little faster

He is scared to go faster

They talk but ask too many questions

She hates questions

She thinks she loves someone

But is scared he doesn’t love her

Fear and loneliness is what she feels

They talk but about nothing important

She waits and waits and waits for love

She is waiting for her superman but he never comes

They say he will never come and that she is forever alone

But they don’t know what she is going through

She needs a way out of her life but the only way that will happen is if her superman comes

Her heart has been broken too many times before

She doesn’t want to date because she is too afraid to be hurt again

She wants to trust him but is fearful

She doesn’t know what to do

He loves her but is afraid that he can’t give her what she deserves

They are both broken but don’t realize that to be fixed they need each other

They love each other but think that the other doesn’t love them

But since she has been hurt she doesn’t want to even think that he is faking liking her just to look cool to his friends

But little does she know that she is his first girlfriend

They are both TERRIFIED that they are gonna mess something up even by doing the slightest thing

He is afraid that she likes someone else

She is afraid she likes someone else

She is feeling so conflicted over this dilemma

She loves him but is scared that it might not be true

She wants to think that all of it is just a crazy dream

But it doesn’t work she knows that it’s real

She is afraid she likes someone in her class

At 13 everyone says you don’t know what love is

At 12 he knows what he feels but isn’t sure if love is the right word

She wishes she knew what to do why can’t she figure it out?!

She used to despise him now she might like him

That’s INSANE!

How could that be?

How could someone screw with her head so badly when they might not like her?

So many voices in her head

How to shut them up is a difficult task

She holds her head in her hands trying to figure it out

Her head is POUNDING

She needs to escape!

But how

How?

She doesn’t want to hurt so she cries

And cries

She can’t stop crying

She is so conflicted

She wants to live her life happy but it never happens

She wants a sign to help

If he showed how much he cared it would help

But he doesn’t

She wants and needs a boy who will like her for her

Next year she will be in a different school

She doesn’t want to break up with someone like that

She wants to have a relationship as long as she can

She doesn’t want to lead anyone on so she doesn’t know which decision to make

How to get out?

The only way to solve her problem without hurting anyone is to hurt herself

But she can’t bring herself to do it

She has so much to lose

Can he still care?

He doesn’t do anything to show that he cares

She cuts to relieve all of the stress

But he sees the marks and asks her about them

She says she tripped and it happened

He knows what happened

She is too depressed to deal with questions right now

She hides and doesn’t answer the phone for anything

She wants to be alone so that she can figure everything out

Nobody will leave her alone

Why not?

They say they care but do they really?

It’s been years since she met him

She got over him

She wonders what happened to him

She has friends now

But she got her heart broken again

This guy promised he wouldn’t hurt her

He lied

He dropped her like she never meant anything

He dropped her like she didn’t matter or had feelings

She forgot him

He never happened

She never met him

She never dated him

She doesn’t know him

His loss

She now realizes she doesn’t need a guy to make her feel special

She has herself and that’s all she needs

She is better now

She isn’t depressed anymore

She is happy and will be happy

She will do it all for her grandpappy

She will make him proud of her.